No lies, just love.

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September 2006 I met a very interesting individual. At first I thought he was weird. But then we started talking every day. After talking to him every second of every minute I realized how amazing he was. He was there for me in my darkest moments. Even though feelings were there, he didn’t let them get in the way. All that mattered was my feelings and my happiness. That’s what I loved about him. He would put everyone before himself. He would rather everyone else be happy before fixing his problems. He would call me every morning and say to me “hey babe are you in school? Make sure you go. I’ll see you later. I love you.” I yearn to hear his voice now. March 3rd 2008 we decided to have a pretend baby. Her name was Mary Juwana. She was the cutest baby. We drew her on paint. She had red eyes and was smoking a dooby lol. Chris said she had her mothers eyes. September 2008 Chris dedicated the song “Can’t Help But Wait” by Trey Songz to me. At that time, I didn’t understand why. I remember sitting in his computer chair and having him plop down right next to me singing me this song with so much passion lol. In December 2008, we went out separate ways. We lost touch of what truly mattered, each other. Months passed by and I didn’t hear from him or see his beautiful smile. I missed him. On May 19th 2009 I randomly instant messaged Chris because I missed him so much. We spoke like we never missed a day. He was sad because his dog ran away. Lola. Lola was a nutcase puppy lol. I cheered him up and right before he signed off he said “Thank you A. You always know what to say to make me feel better. I love you.” Prior to saying that we agreed to meet up that Wednesday to put up posters to see if we could find Lola. I told him we could do it after my doctors appointment. Wednesday, May 20th, 2009 came along. A day I will never forget as long as I live. My phone didn’t ring. His face didn’t light up my screen. He didn’t answer my text messages. At 7:00pm I got a call asking if I was okay and that I was the first person that came to mind when they heard the news. My heart dropped. I didn’t know what to expect. I didn’t know what was happening. When I heard the words “Chris got into an accident and passed away on the scene” I instantly broke down. My best friend. My happiness. He’s gone. I didn’t sleep for 3 days. I missed him so much. I didn’t believe it until I seen him laying in the casket. I kept saying “That’s not Chris. That can’t be Chris. He’s not dead.”

To this day I think about him everyday. I will never forget him. After this happened, I learned to never take anyone for granted for you do not know when their last day will be. Hug your loved ones. Kiss them. Cherish them. For when they are gone, they’re nothing but a memory.

RIP Chris Basdeo

Sunrise: September 15, 1992

Sunset: May 20, 2009

Don’t lie, I gotcha =D

Polo. Nuff said.

Blow smoke. Tweak out.

Every girl deserves roses. Bitchs love roses.

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.

5 speed.